Wish

Can't sleep, can't eat, can't think about anything but you.

The pain is so bad, I want to make it stop.

I wish I could make it stop. 

I wish I could fix everything that's broken between us. 

I wish...

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas my Love.

 I've made promises, and followed through. You made promises to, but walked away....

I gave up my secured life and moved here. You asked me to,... so I did.  

I love Seattle, but you're not here to share it with. 

Desertion is the harshest pain. You know that. 

Dreams and hope, is all that is left. I can't expect you to understand.  

Goodnight 

I never walked away from you.

You walked away from me......

T

A

Dear Love,

  After the other night, if you don't ever want to talk to me again, I understand. I'll disappear, and you'll never have to see, or hear from me again,... ever.

We burned our bridge, you in August, me in July. I hope we can rebuild it someday.

I miss you...


  Your Man, with all my heart,
                   T

Good Night

Good night, good night my Love...
Still here,... still here
Still missing you, still in love with you, still here

Always here...

Tears

I can't provide you with a large house, a nice car, or a bunch of shiny jewelry. 

The only wealth I can offer you is my heart, the only diamonds I have are my tears. 

The Road

This road,... this lonely road. 

How long have I been walking this road? 

I've seen friends and family come and go, and I still miss them all. I've never mourned their passing, because I'm not that strong. 

I've kept everyone at arms length to spare them from my self destructive nature. 

And I'm sorry for that....

Most of my life I've been a floor mat, a step ladder, a shoulder to cry on. Nothing more. Then I'm tossed aside to be forgotten, a guilty mistake. 

No moving forward, no hope, just stagnate, and dreaming.  

All I have anymore are my dreams. 

Always Waiting

Angels weeping over lost love, dreaming of what could be, sleeping endlessly because I only get to see you in my dreams.

The softest part of heaven is in the touch of your skin, your eyes only remind me of what I hope could be, would be.
Walking these lonely dark streets without you is a pain I'd hope nobody else experiences. We walk the same road, but separately.

I'm yours, take me, leave me, I'll always be your man.
All you had to do was smile and say hello, I knew,... I knew I'd always love you.

Tears falling like the city we live in, moments of clarity, followed by pain.
Waking in the middle of the night talking to the ghost of you, only to roll over to wish I never woke.

I'm incomplete without you, and you without me, yet we need to make everything so complicated.

I've always loved you, always have, always will.
You, all the bad, and the good, I love you.
Never walking away, never giving up hope.
Always waiting.

I'm Stuck

I'm stuck, I'm stuck on just the love I have for you.
On how much I miss you.

Your smell, your eyes, your smile, and all the the things that make you, you.
I'm stuck

Why didn't you tell me?
Why didn't you tell me what was really going on?

I would have understood.
I wouldn't have made a fool of myself.

I love you, always will.
Always have.

Pure Love (10/27/1994)

When one heart merges into another, and silent calm is all around
The words "I love you" is expressed timelessly in your eyes, and shall enter forever, and patience shall be supreme
Tears shall turn into flowers, and only your beauty dominates

The angel's choir fills the air and my dreams, and the softest touch moves the earth inside
Pure emotions run free to finish their duties, with heaven's hand on our hearts, and thoughts

Angela, my precious angel, my Queen of the Gypsies, and the holder of my purist heart and thoughts, I love you

Soulmate

I love you, and dream about you every night. You are my soulmate, my one and only true love. You are my heart. 

Lost Questions

So far away, left in the dark.
Alone and withering.
Alone again, with only my memories.

Cheap red wine warms my heart, but not without a price.
With yesterday's angels looking down on me.
Hanging on, hanging on by the last bit of my soul.

A somber velvet cry leaves my lips, and forgotten questions goes unheard.
Do I matter anymore?
Where do I belong?
Will it always be this way?

Until the End of Time

I've never told you, but you've always been the love of my life.
My dreams, my hopes, and everything in between have always belonged to you.
I'm happy that you're happy, but I miss you.

I know you've only seen me as a friend, and you will never see me as anything other.

But my heart will always belong to you, until the end of time.