I'm the Asshole

I'm the asshole, seriously.

I'm the shitty friend, family member, boyfriend.

They've been there, a lot more for me than I was ever for them, and more.

Arrogant, and self righteous, I thought I knew it all.

Now I know better, but it may be to late.

Rat Race

I miss my friends, I miss my family.
I miss talking to some one.
I live in a community of small talk and fanatics.

Going through the rhetoric of life, neither sad nor happy, just here, just surviving.
Getting bored with my music, and my movies.
A steady pace, the long road of loneliness.

Looking forward, keeping strong, trying and hoping for more.

Still Being Me

Inhale, take your time... think, then exhale.

Ask questions, experience, learn.

Dreams, some of them interconnected, and still, dislocated.
Interpretation, could be based on personal bias. Your choice. Your dreams.

Understanding the choices you've made, and understanding your feelings, with no apologies.....

Continuing the journey, curious and content. A series of experiences, still living, and still wanting to be me.

Relax

Intoxicated.... I've been living at work for the past seventeen days, I need to get away, a vacation. Just a bit of time to relax.

Sides

Sides.... why do we always take sides? It's either black or white, right or wrong. What is the purpose of existence, when we're so negatively focused on the petty difference's?

"WANTED: Gnome-napper hits Kennewick home

By Paula Horton, Herald staff writer

Kennewick A garden gnome has gone missing and his owner has called the cops for help.

Binwinkle is described as a “collectible garden gnome,” with green clothing, a red hat, white beard and holding a mushroom, Kennewick police said.

He was lifted from the east side of the property, just off the garage, his owner said in the theft report.

Binwinkle was taken sometime between noon Saturday and 6 p.m. Tuesday in the 3400 block of South Dennis Street.

There’s no word if police have any suspects.

For more crime news, see Friday’s Herald and tricityherald.com."

AAAAAAAAAA!!! Every one lock the doors, and hide under your blankets at night.

Wow, this is news?

Read more: http://www.tri-cityherald.com/2010/06/10/1049180/wanted-gnome-napper-hits-kennewick.html?mi_pluck_action=comment_submitted&qwxq=2201977#Comments_Container#ixzz0qX4bMOeb

Better Than Me?

I watch a Documentary, called "Dig!", I really get into one of the band's.
I look up there first two albums and buy them, they're really good.
I think "My brother, Jim will love this."
I look up the rest of there albums, I see the album cover for there fifth release "Thank God for Mental Illness".
I realize he knows them better then I do.

Think

Love might be a give or take situation, regardless of the promises, but sometimes things just click. Then you realize you're both making you're own rules that work for both of you.... who cares what others think.

Take the time to understand each other.

Don't Stop

Falling down, then standing up, what makes you stronger? What makes you, you?
Twisting, turning, dreaming, yearning, a personal cycle.
The tears of a Saint, the tears of a Clown, a hidden limerick, a truth.... maybe your truth.

Stand with your friends, and hope they stand with you, your time could be near.
Hopefully not, but still, maybe so.... ?

The consequences of fear, possibly irrelevant and unnoticed.
Time can heal impartially. Never give up, don't stop.

Enjoy

I enjoy the awkwardness, I enjoy the challenge, I'm either really intelligent or fucking crazy, you decide. I can't keep spewing words in hopes of understanding, most never listened to begin with...

I'm still walking the same line, and continuing to understand myself. I don't expect you to care, or have pity. I'm happy, I'm still me, and probably will always be...

I hope for friends and no enemies, I'm open minded and open hearted. I'm tired of grudges and drama. Life ticks away to fast for that shit. Give a damn or at least try.

I've always hated labels, but I'm sure I have one, too.

Time to move on, time to keep going. Look for something new, and don't be afraid to explore. Your life is your own and no one else's, your decision, your call, good luck, and enjoy.                              

Moving Forward

I'm feeling pretty good, I'm in a good place.
I just don't know how to accurately translate it.
Sorry.... here I go.

I'm walking to work, listening to some cool tunes, and then I notice.
The air smelled good, the sun was out and it was warm.
Birds where chirping, squirrels where scampering, and for the first time since I was a kid, I noticed.

I couldn't remember the last time, I stopped noticing the colors of life.

Where have I been?

What the hell have I been doing?

Where do I go from here?

I can't stop here, I'm moving forward.

Still Nothing

sitting...... waiting...... hoping...... crying..... pleading..... trying..... still nothing.

Walking

With words instead of actions, with dreams instead of reality, or it would seem so...

Walking my line by choice and with no discretion.

The days, and months blur with no definition, thank God, if one exists. 

A small sample of life, I call it my existence.

The comfort of comfort, most wouldn't, and don't recognize it.
With one foot in front of the other, I'm still walking.
My choice, my road.