I'm Stuck

I'm stuck, I'm stuck on just the love I have for you.
On how much I miss you.

Your smell, your eyes, your smile, and all the the things that make you, you.
I'm stuck

Why didn't you tell me?
Why didn't you tell me what was really going on?

I would have understood.
I wouldn't have made a fool of myself.

I love you, always will.
Always have.

Pure Love (10/27/1994)

When one heart merges into another, and silent calm is all around
The words "I love you" is expressed timelessly in your eyes, and shall enter forever, and patience shall be supreme
Tears shall turn into flowers, and only your beauty dominates

The angel's choir fills the air and my dreams, and the softest touch moves the earth inside
Pure emotions run free to finish their duties, with heaven's hand on our hearts, and thoughts

Angela, my precious angel, my Queen of the Gypsies, and the holder of my purist heart and thoughts, I love you

Soulmate

I love you, and dream about you every night. You are my soulmate, my one and only true love. You are my heart. 

Lost Questions

So far away, left in the dark.
Alone and withering.
Alone again, with only my memories.

Cheap red wine warms my heart, but not without a price.
With yesterday's angels looking down on me.
Hanging on, hanging on by the last bit of my soul.

A somber velvet cry leaves my lips, and forgotten questions goes unheard.
Do I matter anymore?
Where do I belong?
Will it always be this way?

Until the End of Time

I've never told you, but you've always been the love of my life.
My dreams, my hopes, and everything in between have always belonged to you.
I'm happy that you're happy, but I miss you.

I know you've only seen me as a friend, and you will never see me as anything other.

But my heart will always belong to you, until the end of time.

Aware

I need to write, I need to never stop writing. A word a day, a thought, a memory, or maybe a dream. I cross the line all the time.

It's never slowed me down before?

And, I'm aware of this... but I'm still hesitating.

Silence

Tonight I came home to silence, the same silence I've been living with for years.

Freedom's Lost

We will no longer be recognized as citizen's, but classified as statistics. We will no longer be recognized as individual's, but classified as ID numbers.

Welcome to your introduction as a prisoner. A prisoner of our own government, and in our own home's.

Everyday

Everyday is new, if you can take the time to look at it. If you're willing to just stop... and observe. You might be lucky to notice the settle nuances of everyday life.

Next time you have a dream, try to enjoy it.

I'm Fine

Different from my goal's and hope, different from my "old self", and more. Different from what I'm expected to be. Expected to be more, and not allowed to be any less. Just wanted a family and maybe a normal life. Never asked for much, and alway's grateful for what I received. The 'Welcome Mat" has become worn out... so now I feel it's time to walk away.

The Curse

Depression is a curse. It's unrelenting and unforgivable, and seems to alway's stalk you.

Today and Everyday

Dear today, and hopefully tomorrow. I don't want to die, but there's alway's a chance.